Let me tell you something…
I always chase “him”
I always look for “him”
I always love “him”
I keep on running
I keep on searching
I keep on caring
“Always” and “Keep” are my words
“I will always be here for you”
“I will keep on loving you…”
But one day, you left me…
you left me crying
you left me hanging
you left me without saying anything
“I want to die…” I told myself
“No one loves me, and in fact, no one will ever will”
“I should end my life”
I was about to stab myself with a knife when suddenly, I heard a voice..
“I love you. I’m always here for you.”
“Hahaha. I’m definitely hallucinating” I uttered
“I love you. You are worthy. You are a princess. Please don’t do that”
I unconsciously dropped the knife that I was holding
He hugged me.
His hug was different.
It made me cry… so much
“If I am worthy, then why did he left me? Why am I alone? Why am I not happy?!” it was no longer I saying these words… it’s my heart, speaking.
“My dear, it is because he’s not for you. There’s someone better for you. There’s someone looking for you. You are worthy. You are a treasure. A treasure more valuable than any silver or gold. You are not alone…I’m always with you since the beginning. I know everything about you. I know your favorite food, I know your favorite song, I know that you are always crying whenever your parents are fighting. I know you. I know you are hurt right now. I know you are seeking for love. I know that. I know you… Open your heart my love. Open your eyes. Open your ears. Let me heal all your wounds. Let me come inside your heart”
“Please fix my broken heart… I can’t do this anymore. I’m tired of everything… I’m tired with my life”
“Just trust me, my daughter. I will help you. I will do it for you. I will never leave you.I will always chase you. I will always protect you. I will always take good care of you. I will always run after you. I will never get tired of you. I will strengthen you. Just trust me. I love you, and I always will”
These words… HIS words… “HIM” not him.
He calms the raging sea in me…
Thank you so much Father GOD for loving me unconditionally.
I love you.